I won't lie - it's been a long, long week. RMan's neice contacted me and the family is most unhappy with him. His own daughter is confused and dang! Even the ex-wife said she was disappointed in him. So am I. My heart hasn't hurt like this in a long, long time.

I tried going out on a date this past Wednesday but it was too soon. The guy had this sense of humor I don't really like. For example, instead of saying, "when would you like to go out again?" he says, "when are you going to do me again?" I looked at him and said, "excuse me?" and then he says, "oh, I dropped some words. I mean when are you going to do dinner with me again?" I am thinking, "um, NEVER" but I just put him off. Honestly, I know I should but I just don't want to date anyone right now.

It takes time for a heart to heal and mine still hurts. I had my weekend pity party last weekend. Now I just have to deal with the sadness and once I can move past that, I can date again. I just still miss him very much.